escape

I want to lose myself  in everything and drown myself in nothing. I want to cry oceans of tears and go numb in the salt of them.I want to flow with the ebb and flow of the tides to merge with everything.....and become nothing but sea-foam....bubbles lost forever in an ocean of them........ be part of everything....not alone........but I myself.........to be nothing.......but absorbed into it all......to lose all that make me who and what I am.........just for a while....a moment.........not to stand out like a beacon ..... a moment that I am not sought out and clung to ......... like am unmovable strong pillar everyone can cling to.........please just a moment to be free a moment to be engulfed by everything...........a moment  to be weak and flowing like soo many rivers .................